Lost My Soul
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/story about a girl trying to survive in a 'meaningless' world\
"You just can't get used to it. Sorry, I have nothing to live for, but I do it anyway. What's your problem? Leave me alone... Go away!"
"No. I won't. I want to help you, Deaha, can't you see? You have someone who cares. Why do you keep treating me like that? Let me be here. It's only for your good. I think you're going mental, for fucks sake let me be here..."
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