Mom, I'm Feeling So guilty 2night

I'm getting this feeling, quite often these days ,
Seems like my optimism has lost its rays !
Hallucinating you barefeet swaying through bays ,
To protect us from the world, u just wanna embrace !
Loosing yourself and putting all your might !!
Defeating every bastard, without losing any fight !!
What was I doing ?? Just shaking of fright ,
Mom, I'm feeling so guilty tonight !!
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No-matter-what, yu never backed down ,
Just smilling at me, without showing a frown !
Unaware of the hell, you were always being through ,
I was such a trash whom no one would brew !
I wanted to tell you once " Its okay if you sleep..."
But I was so selfish, afraid my dreams might flee !
For making you worried & waking up all night ,
Mom, I'm feeling so guilty tonight !!
For asking for stuff, when i had no right ,
Mom, I'm feeling so guilty tonight !!