Summertime Celebration

Why did I say I'd go?
Why do I always say yes?
Why cant I do anything for my own good?

'Aalyah, can you go to the shop for me?'
'sure mum,'

'Aalyah, can you do the dishes for me please?'
'okay'

Aalyah, can you make me some toast?'
'on it mum'

I should say no, but I cant, that's why I'm failing school.. Well, one of the reasons.

'Aalyah, can you come to my friends summer celebration on Sunday with me? She really wants to meet you!' 'of course I will mum'
That should have been 'sorry mum, I have homework to do' or 'I've already arranged to go out with Bailey that day, sorry mum' cause now, due to my being soft, weak and so desperate to please people, I'm crying, my lungs and head are racing my heart. I cant breathe and I'm scared.