Something Is Wrong With Me?
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Thoughts I've had that:
-make no sense,
-are extreme, even disgusting sometimes
-random but not in a fun way
-make me question my sanity.
These are literal examples of what my thought process has come to since my isolation has nearly consumed me. Dramatic, right?
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