Holding On To You/Phan
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Dan Howell is a teen with a horrible past. He has tried his best to keep the past the PAST, but sometimes the past comes back to haunt him. His parents ignore him and aren't the best when it comes to helping him with his problems. He ha three sets of relief; music, art and... Cutting.
Phil Lester is considered the bad boy. He has gained this reputation from his "friends". Phil is pushed around by his "friends" which are the bullies of the school. He has no one there to keep him going. He has never had a real friend.
Dan and Phil meet while they are both trying to get away from their life. Trying to find a small sense of... Relief.
Follow Dan and Phil through their story of life, hate, suicidal thoughts, and most of all friendship and love.
(Trigger Warning: If you are easily triggered please read this story with caution. There are suicidal thoughts, cutting, and other subjects of depression and anxiety.)
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