Gay Thoughts
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For Chris, these gay thoughts never left, not even now, as a fully grown adult. But for PJ, it was just the beginning. Chris had liked PJ for a long time but when Felix walks into the equation all hell breaks loose. Leafy might have a little secret that's slowly digging away at him too, his life had been rough, in primary and high school he'd get bullied. And not majorly bullied like beaten up everyday or get his head stuck in the toilet. Just snarky comments that made him cry after school. That was when he decided not to cry, not to let anything at all get to him. He'd take his rage out in YouTube videos, he really had a talent for roasting people. He was a very good comedian, he came up with hilarious jokes that would take any normal person, like you or I, days or weeks even.
Enjoy this sad, happy, exciting, astonishing and breath taking story about Felix, PJ, Chris, Leafy and a few side characters like Dan and Phil.
It's pretty simple really. The four boys are all stuck in a love triangle. New love, old love, sarcastic love and fake love.
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