Demoralized

One cut, two cut, three cut, four.

Waiting for darkness with welcoming arms; sliced, diced, chopped and mangled.

Deferred dreams with reality my nightmare,

I'm one step from falling down into the dark abyss of my consciousness.

Am I awake or just dreaming, is this a dream or a nightmare?

A nightmare or reality mocking me?

I can't tell the difference anymore...