Charles Bukowski once wrote; Find what you love, and let it kill you.
And I think that's exactly what I did.
James Hunter believed he was a monster. But all of us know, or at least those of us who watch Teen Wolf, not all monsters do montrous things.
He was beautiful, with his warm brown eyes like melted chocolate, and his soft brown hair like velvet.
Somebody once told me that a lot of bad things had happened to James, and that's why he kept his love hidden away. They said he had so much love inside of him it was oozing out the edges, and that was why he was so cold. Because if you were to get close enough, you could see it.
And he wasn't just beautiful in his looks, he was beautiful in his temper, in his passion.
I loved him, and I'd like to believe that he loved me too, but of that, I'll never be sure.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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