The awesome life of a depressed student.

With boredom and nothing to do , I tought I could just come here and write something , anything , nothing occured to my mind honnestly , so I just figured out I could do as everybody does , writing about my life , it's not like it's shitty or full of problems duh , it's awesome :3 ... So I'll try to say everything I have to say -right now- in one chapter , after that I'll add more if anything crosses my mind ...
Well , my life hasn't always been as awesome as it is right now , I mean , I remember 4 or 5 years ago I was the attention seeking dude , the dude cutting himself , thinking his only hideout was the corner of the house , listening to sad motherfreakin' songs , wishing he could die and leave this damned world , but then I got to highschool , it was kind of tough for me , another life , another vision , another way of thinking , met guys smoking , met chicks smoking , dope , cigarettes , and though I'm still what I was , I'm still me , I mean not the weak me , but my principles are still the same , I swore an oath that I won't smoke , I never did , and still not planning on doing so , so , I started going outta my shell , started making some friends , virtual and real ones , started going out , started seeing life better , started seeing the bright side of the things , keeping my problems for myself , cleaning my shit by myself , so that one day I'll reach my dreams and I'll be proud because I did it by myself ... My dreams , lemme tell you how that came , one day I was desperate , I had no one to look up to , no idol , not my father , not an uncle , not a friend , no one , I wanted to make one , I wanted someone who , either passed through the same I shit I went through , or more serious shit , just so I could lear how to survive .
I still have more shit to say , one chapter ain't enough I guess xD , I'll continue on the second.