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When All Is Lost

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True story about events in my life between October 2014 and June 2016. This story is about deppression, anxiety, self harm, sexuality, pregnancy, drug addiction and gang violance, a lot i know XD. This story will get dark at times. This may be complete rubbish but even if nobody reads it i don't care. I just think it will do good to write about the last few years and the very sad things that happened to my closest friend.
This story is true. (With some of the irelevant bits missed out) hope you enjoy.All Rights Reserved

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