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Tear In My Heart |-/ Phan (COMPLETED)

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Reads 835
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Parts 18
Time 53m

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The lights of the stadium dimmed and all that could be heard for a few moments was the roaring, chanting of the crowd. 
"T...O...P...T...O...P...T...O...P" They repeated as if they were verbally beckoning them to their execution under the guillotine. Every night felt like it could be the last.
Dan took a deep breath against the wall and pulled his black ski mask over his head. It became a part of him, an identity. 
The musical intro began and the lights began to flash. Red, white, black. Dan pushed himself off the wall and counted to ten. He heard the crowd scream, followed by a drum beat. This was his queue. 
He blacked out all of his thoughts and walked out in front of the blinding lights. Screams erupted from the crowd; his mic lowered and Dan fell into character. 


Trigger Warning: Mentions of mental disorders, depression, schizoaffective disorder, alcohol, violence, deathAll Rights Reserved

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Night by writtennotsung

"Life isn't temporary anymore and death isn't permanent, the lines so blurred it's best if you just avoid thinking about it." The world has ended. Humanity is on the brink of death. The apocalypse is real, has been for a long time now, and life will never be the same. Phil is afraid, afraid of losing his one tie to this world that despite it all keeps him going with the desire to keep them both alive, with a love he can't admit. Dan is worn down but determined, not willing to give in despite the overwhelming circumstance. He'd sooner die than lose Phil to anything. They look out for each other, separation is out of the question. In a world where everything familiar is dead and gone, just one person standing by your side can be the difference between sanity and chaos, and for the two of them, the other is that person. But how can love survive, when death is looming and one half doesn't even realize it exists? The world is a dangerous place, and even with the help of their not-quite human companion Cat and and group of newfound friends, there are new, unfound struggles in store for the pair and a secret neither of them will see coming. The objective is simple: stay alive. Doing so, however, is easier said than done. ~COMPLETED 11/6/2018~

He's Not Normal (Completed) by paper--doll

"why do you stare Death in the face as if he's a joke?" "maybe because he is." Psychotic!Dan x Innocent!Phil

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

No, I'm Just Delusional (Phan) RE-WRITE IN PROCESS by lemonslovinglife

NOTE: This story is currently being re-written, so I 'd advise you to go read the new one as this will soon be deleted. Apoligies for any inconveniences. Two people who are completely opposite. Two people who have to face the harsh reality of the world too young. Two people who are destined for each other. To pull each other from the harsh grip of a ruined society. A society that resents their abnormality. Two people who need each other. They have been hurt, they are hurting and they're delusional, just not in the way that they think. * Beware may be triggering.Phanfiction. Phan is NOT real and never will be, respect that. I write for fun and this is my first story. Thank you and enjoy :) xox <3

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

Promise? • phan by phan_muke

{COMPLETED} Phil was mute, alone and bullied. Dan was outgoing, popular, and a bully. But when he starts developing feelings for Phil, what happens? -once again not good at summaries but give it a try-

Bring Me Home // Phan by rey_isnotemo

Dan is secretly suffering from depression. On the outside he seems bubbly and happy, but on the inside he wishes for it to all be over. When his friend, Phil, unexpectedly invites him to stay at his apartment, Dan struggles to keep up the glass that was protecting him. Will Phil help clean up the pieces? TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ INCLUDES SELF HARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY AND EATING DISORDERS. STAY SAFE EVERYBODY. Completed 19/12/18 Best Ranking: #1 in danandphilfanfiction

lovely boy ; phan [ completed ] by -oceanrising

dan was shy; phil wanted to change that. d+p high school a.u., including bold!phil and shyartist!dan © 2015 -oceanrising

More Than a Bestfriend by jennicaphantrash

You're favourite youtube stars, Dan and Phil, meet each other and decide to move in. Along the way is romance, tears and heartbreak. *NOTICE* Trigger Warning. If you struggle with anxiety, self harm or depression, please read with caution as your safety is more important than reads.

psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

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Night

"Life isn't temporary anymore and death isn't permanent, the lines so blurred it's best if you just avoid thinking about it." The world has ended. Humanity is on the brink of death. The apocalypse is real, has been for a long time now, and life will never be the same. Phil is afraid, afraid of losing his one tie to this world that despite it all keeps him going with the desire to keep them both alive, with a love he can't admit. Dan is worn down but determined, not willing to give in despite the overwhelming circumstance. He'd sooner die than lose Phil to anything. They look out for each other, separation is out of the question. In a world where everything familiar is dead and gone, just one person standing by your side can be the difference between sanity and chaos, and for the two of them, the other is that person. But how can love survive, when death is looming and one half doesn't even realize it exists? The world is a dangerous place, and even with the help of their not-quite human companion Cat and and group of newfound friends, there are new, unfound struggles in store for the pair and a secret neither of them will see coming. The objective is simple: stay alive. Doing so, however, is easier said than done. ~COMPLETED 11/6/2018~