Stiles has never really been a poster child for mental or emotional health, but after the nogitsune, he's hit a new low. Nightmares and hallucinations give way to self-harm and thoughts of giving up the fight altogether. In an innate attempt to escape the shitshow his life has become, he gets wasted, not caring about much of anything but forgetting everything for awhile. What will happen when Derek finds him and the shit hits the fan? Will he be able to help the boy he loves? Will he be able to save someone who might not want to be saved? •{serious TW for hallucinations, violence, graphic nightmares, self-harm and suicidal thoughts and actions}•