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Voices in My Head

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Parts 30
Time 2h 19m

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Pain. 
Agonizing pain. That's all I feel. 
Voices. 
Whispering voices. That's all I hear. 
I hear them over and over inside of my head. 
I can't escape. I can't fight back. 
This is my life. 
This is my story. 
And if you can give me your time, I'll tell it to you.


*Warning: contains themes of selfharm and mental disorders

**Completed as of 7/30/18All Rights Reserved

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Not me. (2023) by MineOnlyFriend2

so, I've been struggling for a long time now, and I never told anyone about it. I've never opened up. but I met someone who understands how I feel, and I'm beginning to feel again. I don't know how to do it, but I finally feel I can fight. I've been so exhausted. I'm not better, I'm not sure if i ever will be, but I'm not numb, not entirely. I can't say how I'm feeling, or what i am going to write, but if you want it, it's here. This is for you. For everyone who was made to be the villain by those meant to be by their sides. For everyone with a sensitive heart made to grow strong much too quickly. For everyone who struggles to get out of bed in the morning. For everyone who never could find the words to say why. For everyone who struggles to feel and for everyone who feels too much. For everyone who had to pick themselves back up. For everyone who had to parent themselves. For everyone fighting an invisible battle. For everyone who has been underestimated. For everyone who has to flee to other worlds to cope. For everyone who found other means to silence their voices. For everyone who was silenced. For everyone who was over powered. For everyone who was made to be less. For everyone who had to watch someone else suffer and stay silent. For everyone asking themselves, why? Why would you do this? What did I do? Why is this happening to me? It was never your fault.

Emptiness. by needsomementalhelp

Maybe in the emptiness, I'll finally find a way to escape. But I know I won't. I never do. The darkness is just another cage, another prison, and I'm trapped, with no way out. So I lie there, in the silence, in the darkness, and I wait. Wait for the next day, for the next alarm, for the next moment that will never come. And I wonder, is this all there is? Is this all there will ever be? I'm so tired, tired of pretending, tired of trying, tired of everything. I just want it to stop, to end. I want to disappear, to fade away into nothing.

It started with a whisper (COMPLETED) #thewattys2020 by white-wolf-girl

"A hungry wolf at all the herd will run, in hope, through all, to make sure of one" I heard the whisper again as I sat on the forest floor, blood dripping from my wrists. I knew those words to well and with a gust of wind hitting my face I looked up to see HIM standing in front of me with eyes pure red. I smiled weakly "it's been a long time dev..." I closed my eyes then felt arms wrap around me. "To long that's for sure! What have you done" he growled. "Dev-oh no! What have you done!" I heard two other voice that made me smile. "You all left and moved on, now its my turn" I whispered. "Oh no it's not" and with that said I let out a piecing scream and I felt him bite my arm. ************* It started when I was 6, I was always the outcast of family and they made sure I knew it. So I wanted to leave and I tried believe me I really tried. But when I was going to jumped I heard THE WHISPER for the first time. And the words 'A hungry wolf at all the herd will run, in hope, through all, to make sure of one'. Suddenly I didn't feel so alone anymore and when I turned around, I came face to face with 3 people that are going to change my life forever. And it all started with one very little whisper.

THE GANG LEADER by Moon8100

As you escape from your dark past, you find yourself hiding in N.Y.C and that's when you meet him. The most fear man in all United States. Will you be able to survive in his world or will it break you. ~~~~ "I can explain, this is not what it seems, Blake I beg you just please let me explain this is just a big misunderstanding!! I understand I lied about my name, but I've never betrayed you Blake, or the team I swear !" Alyssa said. Blake was furious, his heart was beating fast. He trusted this woman and she betrayed him or at least that's what it sounds, but at the same time he couldn't bear to see her this distraught and knowing he had to pull the trigger and end her life. He loved this woman, even if he didn't wanted to admit it. David looked at Blake and whispered ... "Blake, tell your men to get in the car, get Alyssa into the forest where no one can see you pull the trigger far away from her tell her to never come back and let her live." Blake pause for a second, thinking of what his best friend said. Analyzing his next move, and with a blink of an eye Blake pointed his gun foward and David surprised yelled .... "Blake don't!!" **Gunshots were heard WARNING!! This book will contain SMUT ! It might also contain SA, addiction, mental and physical abuse, miscarriages and other stuffs YOU'VE BEEN WARNED !!

Broken mind (Under heavy editing!) by wonderland_smile

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The Karma Project by knikole_

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Locked In by MichaelaCilley

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