***Mature Content***Strong Use of Drugs and Mental Disorders*** Namari has been battling her inner demons even before she was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. Ever since she was a little girl, the kids at school would call her weird behind her back. They would avoid her because of the way she acted. She has never had any friends. Even her own mother avoids her most of the time. She loved isolation and never really knew what it was like to be truely happy. She went through all of elementry school with no friends and decent grades. Now came middle school. Her mother told her to be careful of rumors, gossip and mean girls. All the typical stuff. Namari already had middle school planned out. She had read books about girls who struggled with middle school. They all followed the same trope. They got involved with having friends. She went through all of middle school without having to have any friends and she rarely raised her hand in class. Life was going as well as it could for someone with mental problems. But now that she is in high school, things are different. Even though Namari was considered a "messed up" child, she still had hopes for the future. She hoped that her bi-polar medication wouldn't cost so much. She wished that they would find a cure, even if it was impossible. She wanted to become an author so she could share her thoughts with the world and not be judged. But that would be harder than she planned.