vemod | phan
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Dan comes from an abusive home, and the bullies at school aren't much better.
Just when he thought his time was up, he meets a boy named Phil and thinks that life may finally be worth living.
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self harm, suicide, fluff, etc.
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(n.) a tender sadness or pensive melancholy; the calm feeling that something emotionally significant is over and never will be back
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