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Parts 36
Time 1h 45m

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Dan comes from an abusive home, and the bullies at school aren't much better. 

Just when he thought his time was up, he meets a boy named Phil and thinks that life may finally be worth living. 

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self harm, suicide, fluff, etc.

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vemod
(n.) a tender sadness or pensive melancholy; the calm feeling that something emotionally significant is over and never will be back

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More Than a Bestfriend by jennicaphantrash

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Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

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Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

My Blood, Your Bones - Phan by SweetLittlePhangirl

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)

Figure It Out [Phan] by JawnnnnnAndSherly

[Completed] [Phan High School AU] Dan is the 'lonely emo' of the school, who sits back and listens to his music instead of making friends. Phil is the popular, always happy kid who has a lot of friends. Dan thinks that he couldn't possibly be any more different from Phil than he already is, but turns out they have more in common than either of them think. #1 in phanfics - feb. 2019 #2 in phanfiction - feb. & march 2019 #1 in phân - may 2019 #1 in phanfiction - june 2019 #1 in phillester - june 2019 #1 in danhowell- july 2019

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Hello Internet ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

[Complete] Phil was his first best friend in the eighteen years of his life. When Phil first started YouTube, his best friend died, and he hadn't met Dan yet. When they did meet, everything changed. - How conceited does one have to be to show no tolerance for the people they care about? - This story is strictly in the perspective of Dan Howell. MATURE CONTENT: NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER DEMOGRAPHIC. POSSIBLY TRIGGERING. Contains: Self harm, abuse, attempted suicide, and sex. Strong language is used.

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"Life isn't temporary anymore and death isn't permanent, the lines so blurred it's best if you just avoid thinking about it." The world has ended. Humanity is on the brink of death. The apocalypse is real, has been for a long time now, and life will never be the same. Phil is afraid, afraid of losing his one tie to this world that despite it all keeps him going with the desire to keep them both alive, with a love he can't admit. Dan is worn down but determined, not willing to give in despite the overwhelming circumstance. He'd sooner die than lose Phil to anything. They look out for each other, separation is out of the question. In a world where everything familiar is dead and gone, just one person standing by your side can be the difference between sanity and chaos, and for the two of them, the other is that person. But how can love survive, when death is looming and one half doesn't even realize it exists? The world is a dangerous place, and even with the help of their not-quite human companion Cat and and group of newfound friends, there are new, unfound struggles in store for the pair and a secret neither of them will see coming. The objective is simple: stay alive. Doing so, however, is easier said than done. ~COMPLETED 11/6/2018~

Just by Chance- Phan AU by JustAnotherFicWriter

Dan is that kid. The popular boy that every girl swoons over, that everyone wants to be friends with, the boy that's a complete jerk to anyone lower on the totem pole. But deep down, he's just trying to hide and ignore his own secret- that he's gay. Phil is Dan's usual target. Openly gay, awkward, and nerdy, he seems to be easily bullied. He's always too afraid to say anything and would rather stay in the background and get through high school and go to university. When Dan's grades slip 🔚 he needs to bring them up or else repeat his senior year, Phil is assigned to tutor Dan. It seems to be a terrible coincidence that the two are brought together, but it's so much more. Thank you @tissuesfortheissues for this amazing cover Highest ranking: 450 in fanfiction Mentions of self harm and suicide

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You're favourite youtube stars, Dan and Phil, meet each other and decide to move in. Along the way is romance, tears and heartbreak. NOTICE Trigger Warning. If you struggle with anxiety, self harm or depression, please read with caution as your safety is more important than reads.