The Unlucky One

All the things that you're supposed to learn from your mother, I had to teach myself. I grew up alone. I had no one to teach me right from wrong. I acted purely on instinct and my conscience. My whole life I've never felt love. I don't even know what it feels like. I don't know what it's like to have a family. I would die to feel the love of a mother, even just for a minute. I would die to have a mother who would hug me and somehow all my broken pieces magically go back together. I want to be able to say the words 'I love you mama'. The four words that can make someone feel more precious and important than money and oxygen. But it's too late. I'll never get what I would die for. I'm eighteen now which means I'm out of the foster system. I'm all alone in this world. No family to help me when life gets rough.