Caitlin likes Peyton because Peyton feels possible. She is new, bold, and looking straight at her. With Peyton, Caitlin can imagine becoming the girl who stops flinching and finally reaches for what she wants. And Caitlin does want her. McKenna is different. McKenna has been there too long to feel new and knows Caitlin too well to feel safe. She is on the field, in the locker room, beside Caitlin before either of them decides to move closer. Fixing a strap. Passing her tape. Letting their fingers touch for one second too long. Then walking away like Caitlin is the only one who felt it. Peyton gives Caitlin the chance to choose something real. The problem is that choosing Peyton does not make McKenna disappear. She can Take Her Time. But Before It Turns Cruel, she may have to admit that First Was You.
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