Quick I Need Something To Busy Me

I need to busy myself
Unless there's something
Something to do
Then to have these thoughts
Like bullets i am flying out of the barrels
Into the world
The one i left behind

AND I DON'T CARE IF ITS DEVASTATION I FEEL

CAUSE I WANNA FEEL SOMETHING REAL

CAUSE I WANNA FEEL SOMETHING REAL

so...seal my thoughts or so i did
Drain away the emotion today
Please stay away
From me

Because all i do

All i do is make friends find friends

But that's my way of keepin busy
And repairing the despair
Walking down those stairs
I doubt they truly care
As remembered
Life isn't fair
Last December
Left me fallen in tears

I hope your not going to feel alone

Cause even the lone wolves get lonely
Only wanted to finally stop this endless cycle

But i can't
I am alone
Yet again

And it is at least a feeling
Concealing my emotions
In these boxed up walls of memories
Trust me it'll be down in history

And i don't care

If its

Dev-a-sataion

I feel