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From My Bipolar Bathtub: A Memoir of Ups and Downs

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I'm a mother, a wife, a nurse, a writer, and a woman living with Bipolar One disorder. This memoir is the blueprint of my life. The ups. The downs. The tragedies and triumphs. The book is written just as my brain functions. I want to give the true perspective into the fragmented, sometimes scary, sometimes magical, and yes, sometimes wonderful twists and turns of my thinking process. This story is true. It's real and gritty. It's medicated and unmedicated. Welcome to the wonderland of my life. 

This book will be uploaded in multiple installments. The content has been written over the last five years and brought together for this collection.

Warning: This work contains possible triggers for people with eating disorders, self harm, depression, mania, and mixed episodes. Please read with caution and remember the first defense against relapse is communication. If you're feeling suicidal, the impulse to self harm, or harm others PLEASE CALL 911 IMMEDIATELY.All Rights Reserved

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