It gets better
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Ongoing53m
Last published Fri, May 16, 2014
Don't they realize it hurts? Because I am human just like you and them. I have feelings, I COULD FEEL FOR GOD SAKE!! Every night I cry on my sleep. It never ends! Torture by all of those around me and cursed by a society that only sees what's outside. Because I am a good person...right...? Forget about your personality, about who you are and be someone else, because who you are sucks it's all they tell me and sometimes worst. Are they right? I hear all this thins While inside I am broken....
WHY? WHY?! Why on heaven would people find pleasure on doing the most inhuman thing. Why do they find pleasure on hurting others? On hurting me? Because I have been called names, I have been called them all and if you think words don't hurt you are freaking wrong, because they do. They hurt more than being hit by a rock, because you can control the pain with medicine, with...with words you don't have any control you mean what you say final. They words get glued in your head as a memory that you are sh!t (or so they call me). Every day and every night every way they can they will hurt me just for being me and resume their lives as if they were angels (or so their parents think) while...while I lack of motivation to keep living. Never sleeping at night thinking what's wrong with me looking at the mirror and trying looking at myself as if I was trying to find something. wanting to give up.... because...because sometimes you just can't see the light...
When will this end?!
Will it EVER get better? Because all I see now is darkness. There is no light at the end of this tunnel. Or is there? So...will it get better? Will I ever find the light that will help me battle with this dark and evil shadows...will...will I ever be happy?
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