It gets better
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Ostatnia publikacja pt., maj 16, 2014
Don't they realize it hurts? Because I am human just like you and them. I have feelings, I COULD FEEL FOR GOD SAKE!! Every night I cry on my sleep. It never ends! Torture by all of those around me and cursed by a society that only sees what's outside. Because I am a good person...right...? Forget about your personality, about who you are and be someone else, because who you are sucks it's all they tell me and sometimes worst. Are they right? I hear all this thins While inside I am broken....
WHY? WHY?! Why on heaven would people find pleasure on doing the most inhuman thing. Why do they find pleasure on hurting others? On hurting me? Because I have been called names, I have been called them all and if you think words don't hurt you are freaking wrong, because they do. They hurt more than being hit by a rock, because you can control the pain with medicine, with...with words you don't have any control you mean what you say final. They words get glued in your head as a memory that you are sh!t (or so they call me). Every day and every night every way they can they will hurt me just for being me and resume their lives as if they were angels (or so their parents think) while...while I lack of motivation to keep living. Never sleeping at night thinking what's wrong with me looking at the mirror and trying looking at myself as if I was trying to find something. wanting to give up.... because...because sometimes you just can't see the light...
When will this end?!
Will it EVER get better? Because all I see now is darkness. There is no light at the end of this tunnel. Or is there? So...will it get better? Will I ever find the light that will help me battle with this dark and evil shadows...will...will I ever be happy?
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Untitled
I open my eye, i was feeling so much pain around my whole body specially on my head. I was on a bed, i can hear some sounds out side the room like there are a lot peoples my eye can't take the light that comes from the room's bulb it felt like i was a new born baby who can't open his eyes properly, oh my gosh! it hurts much so i closed them back and start to figure out how i end up in this place.... A week later i was out from that place feeling like i was new for this whole word i take my 1 feet out of room then stand there for a minute." how i'm i going to stay like this i wish i could sleep on that bed until everything gets more better!" His voice being me back from my thought " hey aren't you coming will you stand there until you remembered something?" oh! he is so kind but he doesn't want to show it..... he take my hand and i take my second step to this new whole world with this guy named... " ᴍɪɴ ʏᴏᴏɴɢɪ" i named it untitled because i want who ever read this give a title to the story. You can put your self in the place of "I" when you read, thank you!!!Zakończone
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐨𝐟 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 × niall horan
𝐄𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 (𝐚𝐝𝐣.) ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗮 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 ──── ୨୧ ──── ⠀ ⠀ Now, sitting here beside Niall, I realize he doesn't know that. He doesn't know that I carry that song like a bruise. He doesn't know why I felt the need to change the subject so bad on Friday night when he played that song by the fire. He just knows me as the girl who laughs when he tickles her and spins on gym mats. ⠀ ⠀ And maybe that's... okay. I'm much more okay with him seeing me as that kind of person, because to him I'm not broken or bruised. I'm just normal. I've never been normal before. ⠀ ⠀ Because for the first time in a long time, the memory of Micah doesn't hurt as much. It's still there - it always will be - but it feels softer around the edges. ⠀ ⠀ Niall shifts beside me, his voice breaking through the haze. "You ever get that feeling like... you're right where you're supposed to be?" ⠀ ⠀ I look over at him, his face flushed, eyes tired but bright. ⠀⠀ "Sometimes," I whisper. ⠀ ⠀ He smiles faintly. "Yeah. Me too." ⠀ ⠀ We lie there a little longer, not saying much. The lights flicker slightly overhead. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀I believe, that everything happens for a reason. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀I am meant to be here. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ For some reason.Zakończone
Forgotten➳n.h.
"Right now, we don't want to love each other, but we do. Our relationship is toxic, but we can't be without each other," he says, "even when we don't want to be." I look into his baby blue eyes, speechless. He just looks at his feet, but then back at me. "We'll see," I tell him. ------------------------ a/n hi sorry i wrote this book when i was basically a baby child think, so it's not very good but has had some editing so i apologize for how bad it is. a/n it's been 5 years since i wrote this book and it fuckin sucks so like if u wanna torture ur self then read it igZakończone
Always You •𝖫.𝖲• ✓
"Come on, do it, curse, scream, yell at me, hit me, do whatever you have wanted to do all these years." He just stares at me, not doing anything. "Do something! I made a mistake, and I am paying for it, and as if watching you, letting go of yourself as I'm not able to do anything is not enough! I have to watch our friends suffer the consequences of my mistakes. Our friends are done with our bullshit, Harry. And quite frankly, so am I..." Silence. "Say something for God's sake!" I yell, and I look up just to see him with his head bowed down and his shoulders shaking as he sobs . This is all my fault. This is my mess. ... "I believe you, just like I should have from the start." He says gently, and I just cling on him more as I feel his warmth and hear his heartbeat. "Your heart is beating so fast..." I whisper as if it was a secret. "It's beating for you... Always for you, it never stopped beating for you."Zakończone![Unraveled [h.s]](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/388134297-256-k786614.jpg)
Unraveled [h.s]
Love. War. Lies. Nothing stays buried. Emersyn escaped once. But freedom comes with scars, and the past has a way of bleeding through the cracks. As secrets unravel and loyalties fracture, she's forced to decide who she can trust in a world built on betrayal. And Harry Styles, the only person who felt like safety, might be the one who costs her everything. When it comes down to him or her, survival or sacrifice, she knows one thing: She's not making the wrong choice this time. * "Then help me understand." The room tilts. My breath is ragged, his face too close, that quiet demand pulling the ground out from under me. Neither of us moves. There's an inch between us that feels like a cliff edge, almost like one wrong step will send us both over. "I hate you," I whisper, the words tasting like blood and truth. His jaw tightens, and his eyes drag over my face like he's memorizing every line, every crack I swore I'd never let him see. The silence stretches thin; my pulse is hammering so loud it drowns out the world. "Good," he mutters finally, voice rough. **** Started: 1/14/2025 Ended: TBD **** (Cover credit @antiheroics16)
Ephemeral //H.S
"Why can't you sleep?" I ask a simple question. Silence, it only lasts a minute or two but feels like ages. "Because everytime I close my eyes I see you leaving my bed in the middle of the night, I hear you breathing through the telephone, your silence when I tell you that I love you. I see you falling down that fucking cliff." He says and my heart clenches inside my chest, I close my eyes and keep my head down, swallowing harshly. ... Damaged and terrified to hurt again, it's only when happiness finds a way into her life that everything falls appart again. She never meant to love him this much, or to hurt him even more when she's forced to leave everything behind her, including him. But too many things were in the way of the life she wanted with him. And when you're persuaded of doing the right thing for the people you love, you find yourself turning into your own enemy. She almost lost everything, and so did he. They were meant to be from the very beginning, but nothing good truly lasts forever, does it? This is Ephemeral. - - Started in April 2020 Finished in January 2022 No translationsZakończone
𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐀, niall horan
† 𝔩𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢 /ˈ𝔩ɪ𝔪ə𝔯ə𝔫𝔰/ 𝔞𝔡𝔧𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢: 𝔞 𝔣𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔱𝔢 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔡 𝔟𝔬𝔯𝔫 𝔬𝔣 𝔯𝔬𝔪𝔞𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔠 𝔣𝔦𝔵𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫; 𝔪𝔞𝔯𝔨𝔢𝔡 𝔟𝔶 𝔬𝔟𝔰𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔦𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔰, 𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔞𝔩 𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔦𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔠𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔞𝔫 𝔞𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔡𝔢𝔭𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔶; ∴ 𝔡𝔢𝔳𝔬𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔡𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔦𝔫 𝔡𝔢𝔩𝔲𝔰𝔦𝔬𝔫 † "Then tell me," I rasp. "Tell me and I'll deal with it. I'll handle it. Just-don't shut me out." "I can't," she says again, voice breaking. "I can't tell you. I can't be with you. And I can't stand here and watch you break and know that I'm the reason." She swallows hard, her throat moving. "Please don't make me explain it. Please just... stop." I take a step toward her anyway, rain dripping from my eyelashes, my chest hollow. "I don't care if it kills me," I say, and it's not bravado; it's a man with nothing left to barter. "If that's the price, fine. At least then I get to be with you before it ends." She makes a small sound, half sob, half laugh, and it's the most human thing I've ever heard from her. "Don't say that," she whispers, almost fierce. "Don't ever say that." She holds my eyes for one last beat, lips parted like she might say something else - something that could undo all of this, something that could make the rain stop mattering. But she doesn't. Instead, she exhales, low and unsteady, and shakes her head. "I'm sorry," she says again, softer now, like a confession. Then she turns. And that's it.
Crashing Down (Dark N.H A.U)
Most people would call my life perfect and I used to agree. I have wonderful and supportive parents and a hot, soon to be pro athlete, boyfriend. I have been described as beautiful, smart, and funny. I would say I had it all. I am currently going to school at Harvard, but l'm doing study abroad at Oxford. Going to Oxford changed a lot of things for me, but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle or fix. No, the real problems started when I decided to take one day off to explore London. I started my day off with coffee and ended it with a few stalkers. That's the exact moment my life came crashing down. It feels like I was walking on cloud nine. One second I was floating and the next I'm crashing. All because of Niall Horan. Everything I thought I knew is wrong. How can one man do so much damage to my life? Everything I have learned in my psychology classes are keeping me afloat, especially my recent study of Stockholm Syndrome. What happens when you spend your whole life in the sky? You can't go any higher, which means you can only go down. *** "Can someone who suffers from Stockholm Syndrome truly fall in love with their captor?" Professor Dunham asks. "No. Stockholm Syndrome is your brain coping with the trauma you are experiencing. You can't love someone just because they decide not to kill you." I answer with no hesitation. "And how do you treat Stockholm Syndrome?" Professor Dunham asks like it is a tricky question. My classmate jokingly says, "lots and lots of therapy." Not satisfied with my classmate's answer I add by saying, "and never judge or give advice. You have to help the victim on their own terms and avoid polarization. They see the captor as the one who kept them alive. They won't see the bad right away." *** All ideas and concepts come from my own mind. Do not use any of my ideas. K? Thanks! And there will be swearing, alcohol and drug use, and sexual themes throughout the story.Zakończone
Damaged Innocence - Harry Styles FanFiction
''Man she's from fucking North Pacific. You think she actually wants some poor guy from South Pacific? We're trash to her. She's the little innocent, rich, blonde girl that has no worries, except for what to buy with her unlimited credit card'' She wants those guys that wear the plaid and can biy her diamonds for no reason. Not guys like us, that can only offer her, what? Some drugs?'' ''That all may be true, but that doesn't mean I couldn't get in her pants'' I said defiantly. ''You actually believe you could get Scarlet to sleep with you?'' Zayn asked with raised eyebrows. ''Yep'' I replied. ''Fine Let's let on it.'' Zayn said with a devilish smile. ''Fine'' I shrugged. ''Shake on it.'' Liam instructed I held out my hand, as did Zayn. he shook firmly. ''You have 2 months, Harry'' I had two months to make Scarlet, fall for me, & have sex for me. Two months to earn her trust, & then break it for a bet ''Deal'' What happens when it becomes more then just a bet?Zakończone
crumble | h.s
{completed} "I want to go home." I plead. "Do you? Because Lydia, I will take you home myself if that's what you want." He says lowly. I knit my brows together in confusion. He takes another step toward me. "But, don't you remember? There's people out there, Lydia." He steps right up to me and tucks a piece of my hair behind my ear. "People who want to hurt you." he continues. I feel tears well up in my eyes as I let out a sharp exhale. Harry leans down so that his lips are right next to my ear and I tremble in pure terror. "And this time..." I feel him speak against my ear. "I won't be there to save you." he whispers darkly. -- ~crumble ; verb -to break apart into small fragments especially over a period of time due to deterioration. ~ loving him meant risking everything. he was trouble and she knew it... but it was so hard to stay away. Harry Styles is a criminal. He has criminal friends and lives a criminal lifestyle. Lydia White has been a good girl her whole life. A twist of fate causes the two of them to meet. Lydia falls for Harry but soon discovers who he is. Now, he has enemies out to get him...and her.Zakończone
I open my eye, i was feeling so much pain around my whole body specially on my head. I was on a bed, i can hear some sounds out side the room like there are a lot peoples my eye can't take the light that comes from the room's bulb it felt like i was a new born baby who can't open his eyes properly, oh my gosh! it hurts much so i closed them back and start to figure out how i end up in this place.... A week later i was out from that place feeling like i was new for this whole word i take my 1 feet out of room then stand there for a minute." how i'm i going to stay like this i wish i could sleep on that bed until everything gets more better!" His voice being me back from my thought " hey aren't you coming will you stand there until you remembered something?" oh! he is so kind but he doesn't want to show it..... he take my hand and i take my second step to this new whole world with this guy named... " ᴍɪɴ ʏᴏᴏɴɢɪ" i named it untitled because i want who ever read this give a title to the story. You can put your self in the place of "I" when you read, thank you!!!
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