It gets better
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  • Reads 660
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  • Parts 15
  • Time 53m
Ongoing, First published Sep 04, 2013
Don't they realize it hurts? Because I am human just like you and them. I have feelings, I COULD FEEL FOR GOD SAKE!! Every night I cry on my sleep. It never ends! Torture by all of those around me and cursed by a society that only sees what's outside. Because I am a good person...right...? Forget about your personality, about who you are and be someone else, because who you are sucks it's all they tell me and sometimes worst. Are they right? I hear all this thins While inside I am broken....

WHY? WHY?! Why on heaven would people find pleasure on doing the most inhuman thing. Why do they find pleasure on hurting others? On hurting me? Because I have been called names, I have been called them all and if you think words don't hurt you are freaking wrong, because they do. They hurt more than being hit by a rock, because you can control the pain with medicine, with...with words you don't have any control you mean what you say final. They words get glued in your head as a memory that you are sh!t (or so they call me). Every day and every night every way they can they will hurt me just for being me and resume their lives as if they were angels (or so their parents think) while...while I lack of motivation to keep living. Never sleeping at night thinking what's wrong with me looking at the mirror and trying looking at myself as if I was trying to find something. wanting to give up.... because...because sometimes you just can't see the light...

When will this end?!

Will it EVER get better? Because all I see now is darkness. There is no light at the end of this tunnel. Or is there? So...will it get better? Will I ever find the light that will help me battle with this dark and evil shadows...will...will I ever be happy?
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Hollow (Harry Styles) #Wattys2016

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I cupped her face in my hands, rubbing my thumbs in circles over her cheeks. She was having trouble finding words to describe what she felt, and I could relate. I loved her more than words could describe and telling her I loved her was almost an insult to my true feelings for her. My heart ached at just the thought of her not being with me. I honestly don't know what I would have done with myself if I had never went to that stupid party and met her. But, I have a feeling, we would have found each other, eventually. This love's too strong to ignore forever. Both of us had pieces of us missing, that neither of us were aware of until we met. We were like two puzzle pieces that finally connected. "I love you," I whispered, leaning my forehead against hers. "I love you more," she replied in a small whisper, her hand reaching up to caress my cheek while the other rested on my thigh. I shook my head, annoyed and charmed by the audacity she had to think that she could possibly love me more. "I love you most," I persisted, causing her head to moved away from mine as she looked into my eyes. "Always?" She questioned, her eyes unreadable for a moment before a flash of fear passed through. "Forever," I assured her and meaning it. We could live an entire lifetime or for eternity, and my love for her would never fade. It would only grow. There was nothing in this world that would ever change the way I loved her. My, Katarina.