You Can't Always Get What You Want

'The Story Of My Life'

I wrote in bold letters as the title on the sheet of paper.

I never thought I'd end up doing this but I did. I am. And actually just by starting, I already feel better.

Who am I kidding? I don't.

I don't at all.

Not even one bit.

The only thing I feel right now is anger, pain and disappointment all over me. I mean if I had to write something on my forehead in big bold letters, it would have to be 'slut' right? Since that's what everyone's been saying about me nowadays.

And here I am, balling my eyes out, eating ice cream and doing this. For the first time ever.

In three years. Im writing again.

Let me get this straight first, Im not some bimbo who overreacts about everything and well, just because Im blonde does not mean I'm stupid. And I think that mainstreaming anyone is completely stupid and idiotic.

And maybe I am being a bit tad harsh right now but I don't think I can take it anymore or hold it in me anymore.

And let me tell you all,

What I'm about to tell you is the truth.

Everything about the truth.

How everything began.

And how everything began to be like this.

The present.

Now.

And this time, I'm not going to give a care about what anyone'll think this time.

-Ella