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Dan's an insomniac who thinks too much.
Life's hard, thoughts are too loud.
Crying, dying, & 'why-ing' are things that interest him.
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"I'm never what I like, I'm double-sided.
And I just can't hide it, I kinda like it
When I make you cry.
Because I'm twisted up, inside."
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