Lost But I'm Not Afraid
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MatureOngoing6m
Last published Mon, Nov 14, 2016
My world is torn into two at the very moment it hasn't been going right since May of 2016, I came out to my now ex-boyfriend on being molested for the past three years of my life, I've been doing nothing but turned bad and destroyed over everything going on. It's amazing how far words and actions can take you, whether you know you did the right thing or not, you are currently lost but not afraid, what people need to start realizing is that no matter how hard life kicks you around you always come out stronger because you never give up, you still wake up every morning trying to fix the bad with the good, but you remember reality with fantasy, so you lay there crying and putting the blade to your wrist, but wait no stop your lost but your not afraid you look the sun is shining and the skies are blue, yes it's hard trust I know but your just lost but you will find your way.
-Lisa
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I was kicked around like trash on the streets. I was the book that nobody could understand or read, but without a care, they were quick to rip out the pages. I screamed for attention, but time after time, I was ignored. Nobody noticed me, so I made myself at home in my own shadow. They say there's light at the end of the tunnel -- I searched and searched for it, but it could never be found. Therefore, I lost hope as I hid in the shade and endured what seemed like everlasting pain. The little hope I did have was snatched from my arms. My baby brother was my life, and they took my glimpse of hope away. Home. Is that a word? Maybe for a family of some kind, but for me, I never had a place to call home. I moved from place to place. Unstable foster care, fighting for my life in group homes, barely surviving in detention centers, and running away from being mistreated as I made many benches my temporary home. The only thing that I was familiar with was a black plastic bag containing my dirty rags. I am too young to know what it feels like to survive. These are the cards life has dealt me and I am not meant to win; however, I easily lose without trying. It is hard for me to find peace. I am paying for my mother's reckless actions. I am trapped in a world where the sun has died because I am unable to feel love. I am unable to dream. Sorrow is my aura, and the sadness hugs me. My eyes are closed shut by the barbed wire fence from my eyelashes as they prohibit tears from falling. I am damaged. When will the morning come? Did the sun put up a fight last night, like I do every single day? If I can survive the day, I know the sun isn't dead. One day, I will awake to a glorious sunrise. Until then, I hope my brother keeps blowing his pinwheel, and I will keep making wishes with every dandelion I come across. For now, all I know is that everything was taken from me, and the only thing I own is my name.
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