Lost But I'm Not Afraid
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MatureOngoing6m
Last published Mon, Nov 14, 2016
My world is torn into two at the very moment it hasn't been going right since May of 2016, I came out to my now ex-boyfriend on being molested for the past three years of my life, I've been doing nothing but turned bad and destroyed over everything going on. It's amazing how far words and actions can take you, whether you know you did the right thing or not, you are currently lost but not afraid, what people need to start realizing is that no matter how hard life kicks you around you always come out stronger because you never give up, you still wake up every morning trying to fix the bad with the good, but you remember reality with fantasy, so you lay there crying and putting the blade to your wrist, but wait no stop your lost but your not afraid you look the sun is shining and the skies are blue, yes it's hard trust I know but your just lost but you will find your way.
-Lisa
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