Ashley is in a relationship with an older man. She is twenty-three and he is fifty-one and there are times when that is almost unbearable. Ashley loves David with all that she has, but she cannot cope with the idea of settling down so young, before she has even lived. It is selfish and wrong, but she has an affair. David learns of it, and they try to work past it, but the difficulties seem almost insurmountable. Ashley has cheated, but she refuses to lie, and promising David she will never cheat again, when she isn’t sure she can, seems like a lie.
Then David suggests a deal. A get out of jail free card. Ashley will only sleep with other women, not with men. David thinks he could live with that, and not be destroyed by jealousy, and he thinks he can trust her to keep her promise, once it is made. Ashley agrees, unsure she’ll ever need the free pass, or want to use it, but seeing it as the only way to save them.
Two years pass, and Ashley meets Rose, and Rose is like no-one Ashley has ever met before. Ashley is honest about her situation, and tells Rose it can never be anything more than sex between them, and Rose has her own reasons for wanting that. But their lives become entangled, and they become friends as well as lovers, and the choices both are making threaten to spiral out of control.
She didn't belong to him, and he didn't belong to her. But in that moment they felt everything was as it should be. When the sun rose, they would go back to their separate lives as if nothing happened. As if an unspeakable bond had not just been formed between them. No, they would go back to how they were before and move on with their lives. They were both in denial. Neither of them would accept the undeniable truth. The line had been crossed and they both knew in their hearts that this wasn't the end. They were attached now, the feelings, thoughts and emotions would only grow from here, they were addicted.