The Sad Truth

The thoughts raced through my mind as my heart throbbed in my chest. Ask Eric out!? How could I do that, sure I've loved Eric for as long as I could remember, but asking him out? Am I even allowed to do that. Back when I was "straight" the boy would always ask the girl, but now none of these past experiences could help me out. I have no idea what to do, my mind keeps telling me "no!" But my heart keeps aching with "yes". I've gone through the speech so many times,"Eric, will you please go out with me," but I'm still not sure if I have the courage to ask it. Of course I'm afraid of rejection, but I'm even more scared that Eric will say "yes".