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Love, Alyssa

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December 13, 2010

Prologue 

Dear whomever it concerns, 

I'm not deranged anymore,
I'm not the same anymore,
I mean I'm sane but i'm insane,
But not the same anymore.

                       -A.H.

I'm The Pretender and this is my story, my secrets, my demons and my truth.
Consider yourself lucky not a single soul have seen my true self, but considering that this is my suicide note, I thought this cruel horrid world should know the real me, and not The Pretender.  Hi, I'm Alyssa.....

I placed down the journal like book aka my suicide note on the cliff of the building. I just couldn't read it and live through it all again.

"I'm so sorry!"  I whispered heartbrokenly, particular to the people I know I'm going to hurt by doing this, as I looked down from the top of the building that i'm standing on the edge of, as salty tears slowly rolled down my face.Todos los derechos reservados

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