I MAKE BOYS CRY
- or -
HOW I CAME TO OWN A CHEST OF BROKEN HEARTS I DIDN'T REALLY WANT
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''My heartbeat quickens, as his hand accidentally brushes mine.
He looks up, and our eyes meet.
My breath catches in my throat.
Right now, right here, he is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
He continues talking, pretending nothing has changed, but his eyes- his eyes never leave mine, and they, too, are talking to me.
While he calmly continues his anecdote, his eyes are asking a shy question, are wispering in awe and wonder at finding his own feelings mirrored in mine, laugh out in joy at our shared realisation, then suddenly stutter with a touch of fear, a flicker of nerves, but then speak loudly of his growing excitement - that puts the lie to the calm and even tone of his voice - as, never looking away, his warm hand carefully, deliberately, touches mine again.
And thus, it is confirmed.
I am in love.
And, miraculously, so is he.
Poor schmuck.''
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Some are normal, some are strange, some are IT-geeks, some punk, some mainstream.
Some are idiots and others highly intelligent.
Some look just as bad as I do, and some are drop-dead gorgeous.
But there is one thing, they all have in common.
They all cry, in the end.
"Its like you built our relationship with lies." He muttered in disdain and tears shamelessly fell down his cheeks.
"What did you expect? I couldn't have told you everything from the beginning." I cried and listened to my heart beat slowly.
"We've been together for months. You could've told me sooner!" He grimaced and turned away.
"How could I? You can't easily slip these things into a conversation." I sat up and fiddled with my fingers. I was scared that he'd leave me, just like my mother did.
"It isn't about slipping it into conversation easily. Its about it being the topic of the conversation. For fucks sakes, you make an excuse for everything!" I hated when he yelled at me. Tears threatened to pour out of my eyes, but I refused to cry. Too much was going on for me to waste my time crying. "You're fucking dying Elias! This is shit you don't leave out when you're dating someone!"
"Its not that serious." I argued, but it was a lie. It was serious. Very serious. My heart could give up on me at any moment.
I watched as he shook his head in disappointment before leaving and slamming the hospital door shut. Without hesitation, the tears involuntarily fell down my face as I sobbed.
- cover by @rosenoirwrites 🥺🥰