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when september ends | phan

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Reads 61
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Parts 3
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after four years of blaming himself for his younger brothers death, dan howell has given himself one month to find happiness. if he hasn't found joy by the end of september, he would take his life and join his brother.

[ tw; suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts, eating disorders ]

loosely inspired by 'when september ends' by green day

copyright 2017 | @sowasredAll Rights Reserved

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voices | phan au by gothboiiz

dan howell, nothing but a fuck up student and son. he knows the voices get the better of him, or does it? another voice comes, but this one is real. hes called phil lester. does phils voice change the thoughts of dan? or make it worse? ~ triggers : self harm, suicide, blood, anxiety & nervous breakdowns au's : depressed, high school (mainly adult life) boyxboy

The Super Amazing Saturn Project (phan fiction) (complete) by phanwhitets

so basically if you've stumbled across this story i must warn you of suicide, self-harm, abuse, alcohol, language, and sex ;) so Phil gets assigned a new project for his astronomy class and instantly likes dan. Although his constant insecurities and troubled memories always cause him to believe that dan could never love him. Dan, though, has fallen for this sad boy and also believes that Phil couldn't like him back. then sad things happen, happy things happen, blah blah blah read it to find out if your reading it, i declare you awesome

Resistance - COMPLETE by Imagining_Hope04

Daniel Howell is a rich posh boy whose life is entirely planned out for him. Phil is a depressed, anxiety ridden- boy with Mutism that only wants to draw. Written by: InsertYoutuberQuoteHere & placentaandllamas

suicide hotline / phan by kiremio

Dan's lost in a world of depression, drugs and self harm, and he's had enough. Well, that's until he meets a blue eyed boy called Phil in the most unexpected way. [COMPLETED] TRIGGER WARNING Highest rankings: #1 IN DANIEL HOWELL #9 IN AMAZINGPHIL #12 IN PHAN #7 IN DAN #1 IN PHANFICTION #335 IN DEPRESSION

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.

Just by Chance- Phan AU by JustAnotherFicWriter

Dan is that kid. The popular boy that every girl swoons over, that everyone wants to be friends with, the boy that's a complete jerk to anyone lower on the totem pole. But deep down, he's just trying to hide and ignore his own secret- that he's gay. Phil is Dan's usual target. Openly gay, awkward, and nerdy, he seems to be easily bullied. He's always too afraid to say anything and would rather stay in the background and get through high school and go to university. When Dan's grades slip 🔚 he needs to bring them up or else repeat his senior year, Phil is assigned to tutor Dan. It seems to be a terrible coincidence that the two are brought together, but it's so much more. Thank you @tissuesfortheissues for this amazing cover Highest ranking: 450 in fanfiction Mentions of self harm and suicide

I Didn't Know I Was Lonely Til' I Saw Your Face by musiclucky

Dan was a massive dork at his high school, no one really knows who he is and he didn't like to stand out. Phil had a perfect world popular, smart, and had a girlfriend and many friends. What happens when these two worlds collide all because of a fall? Read to find out for yourself! Contains self harm, boy and boy relationships, puking up food (anorexia/bulimia), and depression. Don't like? Don't read.

depressed boy ☹ phan {texting} [COMPLETED] by ewcathyy

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The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Since we were 16 (Dan Howell x Reader) by TwentyOneScotts

High school was miserable. If I thought getting picked on was bad... I should have seen my future. My fathers company was moved so we went all the way from America to the UK. I met friends. Espiacally Dan Howell. I thought my life was getting better until my dad killed himself and my mother became abusive. I needed a hero to save me. And that was Dan Howell... who I fell in love with.

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