when september ends | phan
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Last published Mon, Mar 19, 2018
after four years of blaming himself for his younger brothers death, dan howell has given himself one month to find happiness. if he hasn't found joy by the end of september, he would take his life and join his brother.
[ tw; suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts, eating disorders ]
loosely inspired by 'when september ends' by green day
copyright 2017 | @sowasred
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