Not a Robot

The thoughts behind this poem's narration are: I used to be of the opinion that I was quite similar to a robot. Although I had emotions, I did not understand them. This fact, paired with my overly logical mind, made me think I was robot-like. But recent events in my life have changed this opinion. I am NOT a robot, nor was I ever one. Unlike a robot, I have emotions, albeit I do not understand them. And despite my logical mind, I still do not have control of myself. My logic oftentimes is sabotaged by my emotions. I do not have an "on/off" switch. I do not know everything. I do not know how to control my emotions. I am flawed, broken, insecure, but I am NOT a robot.

[NOTE: Unlike my other poems, of which the thoughts behind their narration do reflect some of my feelings but mostly do not depict any particular event in my life, this poem is written about one specific event, the realization of my not being robot-like. I am the narrator of this poem. While I write all of my own poetry, I usually do not see myself as narrating most any of my poems. This poem, however, is an exception. This is not a fictitious narrator I have created to speak my words through. This is me speaking, fully and truly.]