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I've got a secret that's killing me// Phan AU

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_phan_trash_4_ever_

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Dan Howell and Phil Lester have been friends since 2009 and there's nothing more to it than that. But Phil wants their to be more than just their unbreakable friendship, he wants to be lovers with Dan. Dan has no idea about phils feelings but notices as he was re-watching a video him and Phil had uploaded and hour ago, that phil was constantly staring at Dan the whole time besides when Phil talked to the camera. Dan gets suspicious and decided to play a "game" with phil.

*TRIGGER WARNING* it only mentions if self harm once through out the whole thing because my beans shouldn't ever do that. Anyway continue on.All Rights Reserved

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My Blood, Your Bones - Phan by SweetLittlePhangirl

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)

How to Help Howell? by fiercephandom

Dan is struggling with his self confidence. Well, let's be honest. Dan has no self confidence and struggles to face the harsh realities of life and the pessimistic thoughts and voices that inhabit and nag his brain constantly. Phil tries to help his friend to realize that he really isn't as much as a monster as he thinks of himself to be. These two friends embark on a journey of love, hate, discovery, and confusion. And will they even still be friends by the end of the journey? Will Dan's turmoil break apart their friendship or turn it into something more? Dan and Phil try to answer to the burning question, How to Help Howell? WARNING: Some of this story may be triggering, so if you're sensitive to depressing topics and/or thoughts, gay slurs, mentions of eating disorders, and self harm, this may not be the story for you, which is perfectly fine. Read at your own risk! In case you didn't know, this is Dan Howell and Phil Lester fanfiction. If you haven't heard of them, then go check out their YouTube channels (AmazingPhil and danisnotonfire) right now. It won't take you long to fall in love with them and once you do, come back and read the story. :)

The Book of Lies || Phan [[COMPLETED]] by DansPlacenta

After Dan Howell dies at the tragically young age of 26, he is greeted by death with a book. A book of every lie that anyone had ever told him. This seems like harmless fun but as he nears the end, he realized everything isn't as it seemed in life with his best friend, Phil Lester. Ship: Phan, Kickthesticks Genre: fluff/angst (no smut) Trigger Warnings: male X male, major character death, suicide, self harm, existencial questions, depression, abuse, torture situations, substance abuse and panic attacks. (i want all of you to be safe and happy whilst reading this so if you are triggered by any of these please don't read)

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

Irreplaceable Friends (Phanfiction) by Fandomiology106

It all began when Phil Lester (AmazingPhil) have a crush on Dan Howell (Danisnotonfire). But Phil doesn't know that Dan have the same feeling on Phil. But when they are together will everyone appreciated them or will hate them for being this way... Hey Fandomiology106 I have to tell you that this is my very first fanfiction I ever write, so please support it if its not good than the other phanfiction you have readied or wrote it or it the cover that look like that is not right or something. But if you like it then please follow me for future fanfiction that I will write. Also please comment it of what you think of it or opinion of fanfiction writer or even your favorite shipper that you want me to write it. I REALLY DO CARE OF WHAT YOU THINK OF IT.... Either way enjoy. :)

Keeping the Secret by 5DaysofSummer

Dan Howell and Phil Lester are two semi-famous British Internet Video-Bloggers who live in the same flat. Their lives aren't exactly top secret. Dan and Phil make anecdotal videos about their lives. Dan tweets constantly. Phil posts pictures on instagram from time to time. They are both constantly announcing their next endeavors to their fans via social media. It's impossible for secrets to be kept, so how long will they be able to keep this one? ~ Warnings: N/A This is a safe fanfic :) Rating: PG-13 for mature concepts and mild swearing Genre: Phanfiction/Romance Word Count: 38K Status: Completed

Finding the Phandom: A Dan and Phil AU by AmberIssues0

Phil Lester is a YouTuber who lives in London. He has a following of, just recently, 4 million people. He has been making a name for himself. He loves his job, but he is missing something. Dan Howell is a law school drop out from the University of Manchester. He has been doing YouTube since he graduated high school. He now does YouTube full time. He has a following of six million people. He still feels lonely. What happens if Dan and Phil never met in 2009? In a world where Dan and Phil aren't "Dan and Phil", will the phandom still ship them? Will fate intervene? Warnings: Language, Depression, Self-Harm, Hospitals Cover Art credit: http://maddox-rider.tumblr.com/

In Another Life (Dan and Phil X Reader) by Liv4Writing

You've lived most of your teenagerhood as a major fan of Dan and Phil, and a proud member of the Phandom (shipping them or not, your choice.) You wake up one day to find yourself seemingly inserted into Dan's life as his best friend, and the next day inserted into Phil's life. You alternate being your two favorite YouTubers' best friend. Finally, you notice that Dan and Phil are notably absent from each other's lives: they've never met. You're torn between wanting to bring the two YouTubers together to create the amazing Phandom, but you also want to continue spending your life with them. And on top of that, you only have room for one life- Dan or Phil? Note: Please read the whole story! It won't make sense if you skip chapters.

Tinder - D.JH. by yuhsuga

[COMPLETED] (This was written before Dan came out! I am in no way meaning to invalidate his sexuality, I love him to death!) Based on Dan's video, "Would you date THE REAL Dan?" but it takes a twist. Said video has since been deleted due to an user request to Tinder's app. Rest in peace, Would you date THE REAL Dan?, 2017-2017. Forever in our memories, but never quite taking it to our hearts. Best Ranking: #1 in #danielhowell Warning: Contains sexual content and some other graphic imagery. ©yuhsuga, 2017

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

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My Blood, Your Bones - Phan

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)