False Normalcy
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Last published Sat, Sep 24, 2016
Finished Meaningless noise. Finished feeling a,, together actually.
I kinda just went back to normal, how I was before I began feeling love and passion a all that dumb stuff most teenagers feel.
I don't want to feel it anymore though. There's no reason for me to. So I shut it off.
So the poems in this book, the rants, everything will be full of emptiness.
If I write about death or pain it will not be out of sadness or pity it will be out of the sheer fact that they exist and there's no escape from it.
Sorry to those who are looking for heart warming, love felt poems, or they're looking for poems full of sadness and loss. Go read the first two books to this if you want to read that. But this will be strictly based on how my mind works when I have nothing to feel for. When I have no sympathy.
It gets a little psychopathic cause I'm not afraid to touch on certain subjects with absolutely no passion.
Thing is I just no longer care.
So once again, enjoy my insanity.
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The corner of his mouth tilts upward slightly. I smile again. A smile!? A tiny one, but still. "Hm. So I got you to smile, that's progress, yeah? Can I get your name now?" I ask, swinging my feel a little. He shakes his head shyly, his mouth not moving at all. Geez! Why do I want to hear this dude talk so much? "Okay, that's fine. I can give you a nickname." I offer happily. He looks up from his book, raising his eyebrows. I just stare for a moment. He has nice eyes. Pretty brown chocolate orbs. They remind me so much of....... "Teddy." He shakes his head immediately, frowning. "What, why not? You remind me of my old teddy bear. He was a good listener and he didn't talk much..... just like you." I say softly, tilting my head. He continues to shake his head. I fold my arms, leaning back in my seat. "Yeah, it's definitely sticking. Teddy.....It has a nice ring to it, yeah?" He sighs, the first sound I have ever heard him make. "No." . . . *Jordan* Teddy!? Seriously!? She gave me a fucking NICKNAME!? What the hell does this girl want!? I stuff my hands into my pockets, walking down the busy street. Forget about her. She's just a annoying pretty girl, she'll go away. Everybody does. She HAS to go away. *Spoiler alert*: she doesn't. Don't get close to people or they'll end up getting hurt. That's my mindset. I've been through enough of that. This girl doesn't belong in my world anyway. She's too innocent. *Mature content* {Just a quick update, I am basically rewriting the story. I wrote it when I was in 8th grade and it makes me cringe every time I try to go back and edit it so keep in mind that it'll get better}
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