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I Am NOT Gay •Phan•

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***MAY BE MATURE CONTENT FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE; CONTAINS A SMALL AMOUNT OF SMUT. (WARNING ITS THE FIRST TIME IVE WRITTEN SMUT)***

Dan isn't gay, or at least that's what he tells his-self. He can't be gay, it brings along too much hate that would pile onto his mental stability and Dan can't take that. I mean after all Phil is just his best friend, so why even question it? Why complicate things or make it worse?
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"Is Phil gonna be alright?"

"We don't know Mr.Howell."

"No you don't understand, he has to be alright. I don't know what I'd do without him!"

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Disclaimer:
I do not own Dan or Phil. Any special appearances from non-original characters I do not own either. I am simply writing this story for fun and hope you all can understand that. I hope you enjoy! c:All Rights Reserved

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If only I could love you by somewhereyoullfindme

Prompt: “With Schools AUs it’s always Badboy!Phil with Nerd!Dan or Badboy!Dan with Nerd!Phil. That about a fic where both are bad, and meet behind the bike shed for a smoke, or both are nerds, and meet in the library.” (I went with both are bad) Summary: Dan Howell is one of the most popular kids in school, with a badboy reputation to uphold. On the day that he meets the new boy, Phil Lester, who seems just as bad as himself, they become friends almost immediately. But as one thing leads to another, Dan isn't so sure if he and Phil are just friends, or more? Overall warnings: swearing, mentions of drugs, smoking, drinking, strong homophobic slur, domestic abuse, mild smut, violence, emotional manipulation

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Not Without You by PhiaForTheWorld

(This is bad. im trying to edit this story but I have little time or patience. apologies to anyone reading this in 2019) n this story of terrible chapter titles and stupid moments that make people sick, we discover the life behind the videos as Dan and Phil face their toughest challenge yet.... Demon Phannies... lol jk this actually just a stupid story about a police officer that takes her love for Dan Howell just a tad bit too far... or maybe it's not her fault... (Cover by sparkly_peaches)

Fear || AmazingPhil by Nepeta_Vantas

{{ my best online friend Kimmi has been asking endlessly for an AmazingPhil fanfic from me, because she sadly cannot get Wattpad for unknown reasons. So this is for you Kim!}} We all have that one thing that scared us senseless, right? Darkness. The Boogey Man. Ghosts. But for one person... that came to life. His nightmare took the form of a human and haunted him. She was Phil Lester's living, breathing nightmare. Named Fear. Phil was too happy to be enjoyed by the Underworld, so they sent her up. Phil was afraid of being afraid, and that became his fear. When he started helping Fear, he didn't know it but every little detail about her was being engraved into his mind with the single word description. Despite her torturing her, he was happy for her. Before he knew it, Phil realised he had faced his fear long ago. The moment he made Fear smile, she was conquered. But... what was it that Phil now felt?

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

The Book of Lies || Phan [[COMPLETED]] by DansPlacenta

After Dan Howell dies at the tragically young age of 26, he is greeted by death with a book. A book of every lie that anyone had ever told him. This seems like harmless fun but as he nears the end, he realized everything isn't as it seemed in life with his best friend, Phil Lester. Ship: Phan, Kickthesticks Genre: fluff/angst (no smut) Trigger Warnings: male X male, major character death, suicide, self harm, existencial questions, depression, abuse, torture situations, substance abuse and panic attacks. (i want all of you to be safe and happy whilst reading this so if you are triggered by any of these please don't read)

Secrets and Lies [COMPLETED] by starrstrxck

I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS LIKE 12, DON'T READ THIS Phil is secretly in love with Dan. Dan is secretly in love with Phil. Dan has a girlfriend. This girlfriends hates Phil and wants him dead. Truth gets out after a life is almost ended.. What will happen between Dan and Phil?? Will they get their happy ending or does Jessica have something to say about everything?? (This was written a few years ago. Putting it on public again.) CONTAINS SELF HARM, STRUGGLES WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, AND OTHER MATURE TOPICS

How to Help Howell? by fiercephandom

Dan is struggling with his self confidence. Well, let's be honest. Dan has no self confidence and struggles to face the harsh realities of life and the pessimistic thoughts and voices that inhabit and nag his brain constantly. Phil tries to help his friend to realize that he really isn't as much as a monster as he thinks of himself to be. These two friends embark on a journey of love, hate, discovery, and confusion. And will they even still be friends by the end of the journey? Will Dan's turmoil break apart their friendship or turn it into something more? Dan and Phil try to answer to the burning question, How to Help Howell? WARNING: Some of this story may be triggering, so if you're sensitive to depressing topics and/or thoughts, gay slurs, mentions of eating disorders, and self harm, this may not be the story for you, which is perfectly fine. Read at your own risk! In case you didn't know, this is Dan Howell and Phil Lester fanfiction. If you haven't heard of them, then go check out their YouTube channels (AmazingPhil and danisnotonfire) right now. It won't take you long to fall in love with them and once you do, come back and read the story. :)

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

The First Time (Phan) by PhanIAm

Dan was a teenage boy who was a bit awkward and not the most popular person. He was happy, but not the happiest he could be. That was until he was told about a certain YouTuber who changes his life forever. A FICTIONAL story of how Phan became what it is today. This is a safe Phan fiction with no triggers (although if anyone disagrees be sure to let me know).

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If only I could love you

Prompt: “With Schools AUs it’s always Badboy!Phil with Nerd!Dan or Badboy!Dan with Nerd!Phil. That about a fic where both are bad, and meet behind the bike shed for a smoke, or both are nerds, and meet in the library.” (I went with both are bad) Summary: Dan Howell is one of the most popular kids in school, with a badboy reputation to uphold. On the day that he meets the new boy, Phil Lester, who seems just as bad as himself, they become friends almost immediately. But as one thing leads to another, Dan isn't so sure if he and Phil are just friends, or more? Overall warnings: swearing, mentions of drugs, smoking, drinking, strong homophobic slur, domestic abuse, mild smut, violence, emotional manipulation