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I Am NOT Gay •Phan•

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***MAY BE MATURE CONTENT FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE; CONTAINS A SMALL AMOUNT OF SMUT. (WARNING ITS THE FIRST TIME IVE WRITTEN SMUT)***

Dan isn't gay, or at least that's what he tells his-self. He can't be gay, it brings along too much hate that would pile onto his mental stability and Dan can't take that. I mean after all Phil is just his best friend, so why even question it? Why complicate things or make it worse?
________

"Is Phil gonna be alright?"

"We don't know Mr.Howell."

"No you don't understand, he has to be alright. I don't know what I'd do without him!"

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Disclaimer:
I do not own Dan or Phil. Any special appearances from non-original characters I do not own either. I am simply writing this story for fun and hope you all can understand that. I hope you enjoy! c:All Rights Reserved

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Fear || AmazingPhil by Nepeta_Vantas

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Not Without You by PhiaForTheWorld

(This is bad. im trying to edit this story but I have little time or patience. apologies to anyone reading this in 2019) n this story of terrible chapter titles and stupid moments that make people sick, we discover the life behind the videos as Dan and Phil face their toughest challenge yet.... Demon Phannies... lol jk this actually just a stupid story about a police officer that takes her love for Dan Howell just a tad bit too far... or maybe it's not her fault... (Cover by sparkly_peaches)

It Wasn't Just a Drunken Night(Phan) by DanToYourPhil

Dan and Phil have been best friends for years and Phil is the only person that can truly make Dan feel better when he's down. Phil likes Dan beyond the 'best friend status' but Dan has a girlfriend that he obviously loves very much. One night, when things go terribly wrong for Dan, a little too much drinking might end up changing everything for Phil and him. Is their friendship in danger of being ruined, or is it on its way to something new? *Warning: Smut in like one chapter* Word Count = About 29,201

The Lion and The Llama: A Phan Love Story #Wattys2015 by Nalan1234

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Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

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True Love Always Finds Its Way // Phan by sofiaa720

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The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

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Unrequited Love [boyxboy] 〈Phan〉【COMPLETED】 by b0sburning

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Fear || AmazingPhil

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