Philophobia
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I don't really know why am I pushing everyone away from me, even my family.
I know there's something wrong.
Am I too selfish to let someone enter my world?
Am I too afraid to take risk and give it a shot?
Am I?
I just want to be alone and do everything by myself.
Everyone thinks I'm strong but the truth is I'm scared.
I'm scared as hell.
I'm afraid to fall.
How can someone love me if I can't love myself?
How can I fix myself if I ended up ruining someone's life?
How?
I hate myself.
I hate myself for having a PHILOPHOBIA.
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