Over and Over Again [S.G//Z.M]

Why do I continue to allow him to hurt me? Why do I allow him to keep me as a secret? Why is it that he can flirt and sleep with other girls? But the minute a guy says 'hi' to me I'm the bad guy. I don't understand how this became my life, being someones secret. Does he not love me? Does he not like the pleasurable things I do to his body? Am I not worth being in a public relationship with him? Why do I allow him to hurt me over and over again?