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nyc oliviabenson

I'm just a girl ,I'm not that important or so I'd like to think. I live on my own in NYC and  right now I'm in a point in my life where I just can't find a point to live. I have no fairytale ending I don't find a prince. I find what the world thinks to be villains with the most pure hearts covered with a mask made of grief,sorrow, and fear ,and these wonderful people turn out to be the most caring and perplexing individuals. this is my journey ,undecided , wobbling on life a death this is who I am and always will be. this is my life today, tommorow , and for years to come...hopefully.All Rights Reserved

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