Lost
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Last published Wed, Jul 26, 2017
Everything was going good in my life, I had an excellent career, a beautiful best friend who I can't stay away from, and amazing friends. But then everything changed. Nothing was the same, my life had totally been flipped on it's back and kicked in it's side, and I can't do anything about it. My thoughts are different, all turned to mush, I can't think straight anymore. All the things that I thought were real; taken right from me.
And I was terrified.
It can't be fair, no way in Hell is this fair. Everything is different now, and so am I. I can't function anymore.
I am lost.
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