"I try to keep the fact that I'm helping her study in the back of my mind. I know that's the only reason why I've been granted this opportunity to talk to her but I desperately want to be feel that way again.. Feel normal." Just writing out my perfect nerdy fantasy.. I don't exactly have a description, this is a writing experiment. I'm trying to better my writing style. I will update the description soon once I get enough feedback and decide which direction I want to go with this story.