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How I Fixed My Pathetic Self

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I figured out how to fix myself! No more hard drugs! I need to build myself to do things on my own without... "outside forces"
I had no idea my adventure would end like this. I did little story of my experience with ONLY ecstasy for the first time. While describing what I experienced from JUST ONE ecstasy. I also mention what I was thinking about as the effects surfaced. This all lead to an answer I've been looking for... for a very very long time. 
BYE BYE heavily intoxicated me. 

This is the first time I've actually paid attention to the effects of a drug other than marijuana and I decided to take record of  it AS it happened... and I just want to share my experience. 
In this there was no "let me go change that, that's weird." or "I don't want to share that..."
everything was put on the table as it happened with the time recorded and everything.

p.s. Feel free to jump around, I tend to babble a bit in my writing sometimes.All Rights Reserved

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