The Anxiety Diaries
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Last published Thu, Jun 18, 2020
(Written in 2016)
Anxiety... Oh, lovely Mr. Anxiety. We have known each other so long now and yet my fondness for you is still (and will forever be) non-existent.
Hello lovely reader, my name is J and I have General Anxiety Disorder.
I am a functioning human being living life as best I can but sometimes I find myself almost, 'stuck in the mud', if you will.
This little book - of sorts - is going to be a collection of my anxieties. I want to write them all out and begin understanding them all a little better and hopefully helping, aiding and relating to a few of you on the way.
Like a diary, I guess.
(Written in 2020)
This has evolved somewhat since it began - like myself, I guess.
I needed this as an outlet for my anxiety, intrusive thoughts and general angst; and it helped. But now, I see this being a real-life journey in a creative format.
I love writing stories and what I find the most therapeutic is creatively communicating my own experiences and turning them into snippets of stories.
If you're interested in reading about some strange person's own take on the complexities of her life - education, career, social life... love life.
Please, read on.
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