Happy Place
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Ongoing7m
Last published Tue, Sep 13, 2016
Each day, a war is fought inside my head. A war between hate, love, depression , and the unknown of who I truly am. Many people say go to your happy place to end your struggle but what's the point of going to my happy place if it's torture?
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