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This Is Me.

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There aren't many people in this world who know me.  And of that small handful, they "think" they "know" me,  they "think" they "know" what's going on inside my head.  They "think" they do, but they don't. 
I wish they did.  But they never will.  Sometimes, I don't even "know" me.  
I guess I can't call this a diary, those are kept private.  With this, I want you to read it.  So, if you want to actually "know" me, read this.  Please.  I'm not asking for sympathy, just for you to "understand" me.  
But you still won't.  Even by the end of this book, you won't even "know" the beginning of me.All Rights Reserved

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