to cut.

the worse i feel, the bigger the desire to cut becomes.

the bigger the desire to cut becomes, the deeper i will cut.

the deeper i cut, the clearer i think afterwards.

the clearer i think, the foggier it becomes after it.

the foggier it becomes, the worse i feel.

and the worse i feel, the bigger the desire to cut becomes...

(A/N: Könnte triggern, lest es bitte also nur wenn ihr mental stabil seid und euch dazu in der Lage fühlt. Ich verarbeite mit diesem Buch, aber in euch kann es etwas auslösen, was ich nicht will.)