From beyond
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Ongoing9m
Last published Sun, Sep 18, 2016
If I'd known that right now I'd be dead, there are so many things that I would have changed. There are the basic, right-before-death things, like: checking my phone and taking my car in for a service a few weeks prior.
But there are also things that I wish had been different, things that I wish I had/ hadn't done. Things that I wish my loved ones wouldn't have had to deal with after I died. More specifically, I wish I'd lived the whole of my last month differently. I hurt so many people and started messing up my own life while I was at it. If I'd known that I'd never get the chance to right my wrongs or apologize for the stupid things I'd done, I'd have done all I could to fix my mistakes in the last hour leading up to my death.
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