My Dark Paradise

I guess I should start from the beginning. My name is Melody Hamstring, yeah I know it's a weird name, I'm 16 I've been through a lot but I hide it all. I was only 6 when I had to go through huge changes. My Mom died in a car accident leaving me broken and alone. Soon after my father began to drink and do drugs and started to abuse me often. I have no siblings so I'm often alone with thoughts that torment me along with the voices that mock me about everything I do and insult me everywhere I go everyday,and take all the happiness I might find away. I'm not good with copeing with my feelings. I try to hold everything inside and hide my true feelings .I have a constant pain of sorrow and regret in my chest, it never stops.After a while it becomes to much to handle, to much to hold in, and thats the point we're I break.I feel nothing but yet I feel everything, is that even suppose to be possible? It's like a repeating cycle that just keeps getting worse and worse.