At 7 years old, I became alone. After a child's personality has developed when a child turned 7, or as what the "Society" claims to be facts, they were separated into 4 categories- life, lief, ilef and the unspoken. Being sorted into ilef was considered a disgrace, and that was where I was sorted into. No family, no friends, nothing. Everyday was a living nightmare, with dead bodies of those that committed suicide strewn over the streets. There was absolutely nothing to live for. I wanted to know what happiness was ,i wanted to see how my family looks like now, i wanted to be free from here. That was my only motivation to stay alive and escape from here. Even if I die, I would at least die without regrets. My journey in LIFE, and eventually into ILEF, as my so called "therapy" begins starts now. Romance, hopelessness and sacrifice, something I hope to have never experienced engulfed my journey, towards death or a better life. I would never know.
LIFE and LIEF are those that are contented with life and are classified as 'normal' in this society. LIEF however were considered to be the more desired ones in today's society as they would gladly accept anything life throws at them and would sacrifice food or resources for the good of others. They would still be happy about it.
ILEF however was deemed to be "flawed" as happiness was a rare emotion for them, and are hence hushed to another part of the world, where it was filled with people of the same kind. Reason? Because depression was "contagious", and there was no point providing for those that would never be satisfied.
The unspoken, well there is a reason why its not spoken.
"I like that I can read this in a child like voice for the beginning and that it's descriptive yet secretive."
"I have so many things to say, but I'll start with, this was amazing. You seriously depicted every emotional turn with such great detail and strength and it's simply amazing"
"You never cease to amaze me."
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All the things I wish I could say but life just got in the way. My hopes and dreams all taken, my life turned around, I got lost and I don't think I'll ever be found.
This story is a series of letters to my sister Ashley, someone I never had the chance to meet. It will walk through when I was a child and found out I was getting a sister to when I got older and understood why she never came into this world. Through this story you will see how this one thing had such an impact on my life and made me the person I am today. This one moment is what got me into writing. I went from imagining who she'd be as a person to making my own characters and stories so that I could escape the real world.
This is my story. This is Ashley's story. This is my life.
Update: The book is complete. I have revised and edited and I don't feel that there is anything left I need to say.
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