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Anxious

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Its like an ocean and I'm drowning in the middle of it. Like a burning fire in my chest thats burning me to ashes bit by bit. It's like I forgot to breathe. Like my lungs forgot to work. I'm looking all around trying to find an escape from this freezing hell. I'm frozen. Like my feet are somehow glued to the ground with an adhesive too strong for my legs. I'm looking all over trying to find a light to my darkness...until I see him.All Rights Reserved

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