Help Me
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MatureOngoing9h 2m
Last published Thu, Jul 30, 2015
...I'm doing it. I'm going to do what I've been cogitating- premeditating this for years. Will they notice if I'm gone? Will they care? I don't know... But, I do know this. I don't. Not anymore... They say this "isn't the way out,", "ask for help", "I'm there when you need me,". Lies, all piles of damn lies just to get you off their consciences'...Hmm, don't you hate when someone asks: "Are you okay?", when in reality they want you to reply with a pitiful "yeah", or a solemn head nod just to seem like a "good" person and get you off their shoulders when they know they don't care if you sobbed 'til the break of dawn? Yeah, me too. I'm tired of the psuedo sincerity. Treacherously, I'm aware of all the pains of tomorrow. And to be honest, I do not want to endure them any longer.
The stinging wind pierced my skin like a flight of atmospheric needles. I peered over the bridge and asked myself, "Is life worth it?" . The grey clouds weeped merely from above. A numb feeling possesed me. Unlike the clouds, I wept no more, for my well of tears had run dry. The murky water below the bridge swayed in a calm, mirthless fashion. Serenity within myself will never be established, for the soul reaches enternal damnation if taken by itself. Shit, being here on this earth is eternal damnation if you ask me. If hell is my destination, then it's time to burn baby burn. In this moment though, for once in my life I'll be able to fly like a wingless bird...
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