Don't Even Bother

I'm not a heartless-emotionless bitch. I'm just doing what is best for everyone. When they learn what I've had to do to survive they will be ashamed. I only bring trouble. I already lost everything and everyone I once loved. I'm not ready to care and lose again; Im just not strong enough.

But what happens when someone goes against all your reasons and will's. They carve inside your heart so deep that it will hurt in the end to be with them and not to be with them.
"But what ever I do, I must not fall in love," she chanted to herself.