deranged | phan
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Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide.
He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually.
Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself.
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mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc
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deranged
(a.) mad; insane
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