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deranged | phan

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Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. 

He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. 

Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. 

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mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc

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Speak up already - Phan by geniusotaku

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

thin ⚣ phan by artworkphan

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Phan ~ Is It Destiny by PoJayneBartaby

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Outcast ✧ Phan by cuddlephan

Dan Howell has telekinesis - a power just like out of a comic book. Yet instead of protecting the universe as a brave superhero, he hides. He hides his power and himself, fearing nothing more than getting attached to somebody and dragging them down. Of course, Phil Lester, the new kid in school, just had to come waltzing in, destroying his entire view on nearly everything in the worst (and best) ways possible. Phil's like a drug, and boy, is Dan addicted. Warning: contains self harm, depression, boyxboy, references towards abuse, and other possible triggers or content you may not be comfortable with. you can message me in private for the specifics if you feel you need it and remember to stay safe. (Top: #89 in Fanfiction, #1 in Phan!)

vemod | phan by phanlusions

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Catfish | phan by akaarie

[complete] Seventeen-year-old Dan Howell never expected he'd meet the man of his dreams in an online chatroom. Six months later, he'd also never expected they'd end up coincidentally rooming together in a vacation house. This wouldn't have been too bad if Dan had actually told Phil the truth about his identity, not that his name was "Blake". Now, he's stuck on a week long holiday with an Internet crush who has no idea who he really is. - *note: original plot idea belongs to ButterFish; i take no credit

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.

Tied Down. by Awonderwallofmystery

It's not every day that you get kidnapped along with your best friend... Dan Howell is about to discover he's involved in the most sick, twisted game ever. One in which he must decide who gets the daily beatings out of him and his best friend Phil Lester. However, this sudden change in lifestyle brings new opportunities for the two lads; opportunities in which they couldn't have comprehended before they were taken. As more beatings are took each day, Dan finds out just how much Phil cares for him and just what he would do to save him. But will they both survive or will it all become too much?

Undercover (Phan) by phansauce97

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psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

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