These Words are Knives and Often Leave Scars (phan AU)
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Last published Sun, Jun 18, 2017
I STARTS OFF CRINGY BUT IT GETS BETTER. I PROMISE.
When Phil Lester moves to a new town he's really excited to make some new friends at the local school that he is to attend. But will making friends with the suicidal boy with brown eyes and fringe be something more than he bargained for?
A/N: This story contains A LOT of depression, self harm and suicide. So if you are triggered by those things please DO NOT read this. I don't want my writing to hurt anyone.
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I'm sorry if it's not that good as this is my first phanfic! ^_^
NO SMUT
May contain:
Abuse
Suicidal thoughts, cannon
And (of course) swearing.
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