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These Words are Knives and Often Leave Scars (phan AU)

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Reads 372
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Parts 16
Time 1h 13m

Phantabulous123

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I STARTS OFF CRINGY BUT IT GETS BETTER. I PROMISE.
When Phil Lester moves to a new town he's really excited to make some new friends at the local school that he is to attend. But will making friends with the suicidal boy with brown eyes and fringe be something more than he bargained for?

A/N: This story contains A LOT of depression, self harm and suicide. So if you are triggered by those things please DO NOT read this. I don't want my writing to hurt anyone.


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I'm sorry if it's not that good as this is my first phanfic! ^_^


NO SMUT
May contain:
Abuse
Suicidal thoughts, cannon
And (of course) swearing.All Rights Reserved

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Unrequited Love [boyxboy] 〈Phan〉【COMPLETED】 by b0sburning

Phil has a massive crush on Dan, and it keeps getting bigger with every passing moment of his life. Phil is always envious when Dan gets in a relationship or he hits on someone, but he's scared to tell him. Until he finally does. He didn't get the reaction he expected. Rejection. Dan soon realized his mistake, and that in his heart he had something for Phil all along. ----------------- Copyright to TheRealDanIsOnFire 2015 The story is in Phil's POV (point of view) unless I say otherwise. DISCLAIMER: I do not own Dan and/or Phil (unfortunately) or any ideals connected to them.

Hello Internet ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

[Complete] Phil was his first best friend in the eighteen years of his life. When Phil first started YouTube, his best friend died, and he hadn't met Dan yet. When they did meet, everything changed. - How conceited does one have to be to show no tolerance for the people they care about? - This story is strictly in the perspective of Dan Howell. MATURE CONTENT: NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER DEMOGRAPHIC. POSSIBLY TRIGGERING. Contains: Self harm, abuse, attempted suicide, and sex. Strong language is used.

Outcast ✧ Phan by cuddlephan

Dan Howell has telekinesis - a power just like out of a comic book. Yet instead of protecting the universe as a brave superhero, he hides. He hides his power and himself, fearing nothing more than getting attached to somebody and dragging them down. Of course, Phil Lester, the new kid in school, just had to come waltzing in, destroying his entire view on nearly everything in the worst (and best) ways possible. Phil's like a drug, and boy, is Dan addicted. Warning: contains self harm, depression, boyxboy, references towards abuse, and other possible triggers or content you may not be comfortable with. you can message me in private for the specifics if you feel you need it and remember to stay safe. (Top: #89 in Fanfiction, #1 in Phan!)

pretend (phan) by audrat

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Those Who Love | Phan by mychemicalsophiee

Dan is a prince - and a different one at that. Usually you'd think that being a prince is a dream come true, but not for Dan. He just wants a normal life, normal friends, maybe a boyfriend... Finally, he gets the chance to move to a place far away from his small kingdom and live with his Auntie Eleanor. The problem? He has to pretend that he's not a prince. Lying? He's not so great at that. But for someone who wanted a boyfriend but hated the idea of love, he never expected to actually fall in love. Phil Lester. The boy with the black hair, who actually likes Dan for Dan. And so Dan can't tell him that he's a prince in a place on the other side of the world - and he wants it to stay that way. Otherwise he'll have to move back home and never return. Will everybody find out? Will his chance at a normal life be ruined? Dan finds out that not everything is always normal, and most definitely, you can never avoid being one of those who love.

With crying eyes and open arms - Phan by just-phan-things

Dan is lonely without any friends and is scared of bullies. Phil is angry a lot and he is a bully So can they both find similarities and become friends? Or are they destined to be enemies forever? Tw: Mentions of suicide etc // This was my first fic, I know it's bad and cringy or whatever but IT WAS THE FIRST THING I WROTE I'M SORRY!! I think my writing has slightly improved since writing this though, so please don't base my writing skills on this because it's awful...

On The Run [phan] by fxckphan

He darkened his hair with the gloves that came with the kit. Running his destructive fingers over his head. How could he be so reckless? Shaking his head as if for a split second he thought that would rid the terrifying thoughts that swam through it. Maybe the dye will kill his thoughts? If only it were that easy. Defeated Phil Lester runs from his past life hoping to find a peaceful new beginning. He is greeted by a quaint coffee shop nestled in the middle of a quiet town constantly plagued by rain. Soon he sets his eye on Dan Howell a young boy with an appetite for poetry and a hand for art. The fire in his eyes is unmistakable and Phil just hopes his blue sea will not drown the flames.

Talk To Me by Purpletiger333

Part 1 Phil is the new boy to school. Dan is the loner who doesn't talk. After his new friends, Chris and Pj, convince him to talk to him, Phil finds himself fascinated with him. As they grow closer he learns that the silent boy has a lot more to him. Part 2 After high school Dan and Phil moved in together, growing closer than before. As Phil finds out more and more about Dan's horrible past he finds himself feeling something more... Does Dan? What are they going to do though when Dan finally breaks? Can Phil fix him? And after 5 years of asking of Phil asking 'talk to me' will he? A/N Part 1 is mostly an in-depth backstory if you want to skip, although it might not make sense then. It also contains no actual 'Phan'. It will be entirely Phils POV for part 1 and mostly Phil for part 2. This book was inspired by 'Speak Up Already' by Geniusotaku. This is my first fan fiction so constructive criticism is appreciated. Credit to whoever made the cover, idk who it was I just found it. Completed! Contains: Phan (duh), KickTheStickz, Troyler, minor Zalfie. WARNING!!!! This book will probably be VERY triggering!! CONTAINS: attempted suicide, triggering thoughts, boyxboy, anorexia, depression, anxiety, selective muteness, abuse.

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

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Unrequited Love [boyxboy] 〈Phan〉【COMPLETED】

Phil has a massive crush on Dan, and it keeps getting bigger with every passing moment of his life. Phil is always envious when Dan gets in a relationship or he hits on someone, but he's scared to tell him. Until he finally does. He didn't get the reaction he expected. Rejection. Dan soon realized his mistake, and that in his heart he had something for Phil all along. ----------------- Copyright to TheRealDanIsOnFire 2015 The story is in Phil's POV (point of view) unless I say otherwise. DISCLAIMER: I do not own Dan and/or Phil (unfortunately) or any ideals connected to them.